How It Began – Pt 6 – Law of One

Law of One

I had to sit and think about how to even begin to tackle discussing this part of my journey. I suppose how I came across this work would be a good place to start. Having developed the interest in channeling or more general, spirit guide contact, I came across David Wilcock. I had always seen him pop up from time to time in my research; however I never really looked too much into it because on YouTube, for example, the video titles would come across as pretty ridiculous.  It wasn’t until I became very intrigued with the Gaia series “Cosmic Disclosure” by David Wilcock that I had started to take notice (I will get more into the series in a later post). What peaked my interest, is the topic of the Law of One kept coming up in the conversations. After a brief research I realized this was a body of work that contained every possible subject in spirituality and the universe you could think of. After reading about the source of the material and how it came about, this was some pretty outrageous stuff, even for me.

Law of One is a collection of 5 books channeled by L/L Research (Carla Rueckert, Don Elkins, and Jim McCarty) between 1981 and 1984. The books are comprised of 106 channeled sessions.  David Wilcock created a study guide, summarizing the books where he states, “Ra’s words, brought through in 1981, are arguably the ultimate source of accurate ET information to have emerged in modern history.”

Introduction By Don Elkins

Here is an excerpt by Don Elkins from the Introduction of Book 1.

“Since our experimental work began, and even before we officially formed a research group, there was considerable confusion about the nature of our research. I would like to state that I consider my point of view to be purely scientific. Many readers of this material have used as a basis for its evaluation a previously assumed philosophical bias which has ranged from what I would call objectively scientific to subjectively theological. It is not the purpose of our research group to attempt to do anything other than make experimental data available. Each reader will undoubtedly reach his own unique conclusion about the meaning of this body of data.

In recent years there has been much controversy about phenomena that were apparently incompatible with accepted methods of scientific research. This included such things as UFOs, mental metal-bending, psychic surgery, and many other seemingly miraculous happenings.

To prove or disprove any of these alleged phenomena is certainly not properly the task of the casual observer. However, most of the public opinion that has been generated with respect to these events seems to be the product of quick and superficial investigation. After almost thirty years of research and experimentation in the area of so-called paranormal phenomena, I must recommend extreme caution in reaching a conclusion. If it is possible to make money, gain notoriety, or have fun from perpetrating a hoax, then someone usually does it. Consequently, paranormal or psychic areas are prime targets for the trickster, and the careful researcher usually has to observe copious amounts of ‘garbage’ data in order to find a possible imbedded gem of truth. This is especially true of Philippine psychic surgery and the large area of spirit communication in general.

It seems to me that the presently accepted scientific paradigm is less than adequate. It is my opinion that our present natural philosophy is a very special case of a much more general case yet to be unveiled. It is my hope that our research is in the direction of this discovery. After assimilating several million words of alleged extraterrestrial communication, it is also my opinion that this book and the subsequent volumes of the Ra material contain the most useful information that I have discovered. As a result of all of this delving into the rather confusing subjects of UFOlogy and parapsychology, I, of course, have formed my current opinion of how things ‘really are.’ This opinion may change at any time as I become aware of future information. This book is not intended to be a treatise of my opinion, so I will not attempt to defend its validity. The following is the best guess I can make about what we think we are doing. Only time will tell as to the accuracy of this guess.

Our research group uses what I prefer to call ‘tuned trance telepathy’ to communicate with an extraterrestrial race called Ra…

Probably the most difficult thing to understand about Ra is its nature. Ra is a sixth-density social memory complex. Since Earth is near the end of the third-density cycle of evolution, this means that Ra is three evolutionary cycles ahead of us. In other words, Ra’s present state of evolution is millions of years in advance of Earthman’s…

At this writing we have completed over 100 sessions of experimental communications with Ra. This approximate 300,000 words of information has suggested to me a possibly more adequate scientific paradigm. Only time and future will serve to validate and expand this paradigm.

How To Proceed

On 05-21-2018 I was having a very exceptional day of synchronicities and creative flow. I kept a spiritual journal of this day. One of the moments I had that day, I was developing a new meditation technique using VR (Virtual Reality) and had the feeling that what I was seeing and experiencing in that moment was what I felt the spirit world beyond the third density – or existence past this 3D existence on Earth, looked like. It was a world of light and light beings. It felt like a world that felt like home. This idea of the Universe was what I had come to understand through the Law Of One.

I was reminded of how profoundly this body of work has changed me on every level. What is so tragic about the whole thing, is I don’t know a single person close to me who could possibly come to believe this material. Not only that, but all of this I’ve come to know. As Joe Rogan stated in one of his stand ups that is applicable here, “I don’t get it. I get that you get it, but I don’t get it.” I stepped away from writing this blog for a couple weeks because I didn’t know how to proceed. How do you plead your case, for what I consider, to possibly be, the most important written work of modern times, that is so out there that no one could possibly believe it.

Don Elkins wrote…

“The first thing to say about the UFO phenomenon is that it is extraordinarily strange. The serious researcher, as he reads more and more and does more and more field research, finds himself less and less able to talk about the UFO phenomenon in a sensible and “down to Earth” way. Well over half the people in the United States have said in nationwide polls that they believe that UFOs are real, and television series and motion pictures reflect the widespread interest in this subject. Yet, there are few researchers who would pretend to be able to understand the phenomenon completely. Dr. J. Allen Hynek (head of Project Blue Book) has called this quality of the research the “high strangeness’ factor and has linked the amount of high strangeness with the probable validity of the case.”

The Biggest Lesson In My Journey

This led to what I consider the most important lesson of my journey. I feel pretty silly in that, it was in front of me all along. I wrote about it in two of my previous blogs and yet I never put it together.  I talk about it in detail in How It Began – Pt 3 – Eric Pepin, the Psychic and the Metaphysical Connection under the subtitle Believing. In meditation, you have to engage the experience believing and without fear that everything is a sign, a signal, a message, a meaning. In psychic practice you have to do the same. You HAVE to believe it. It’s not till AFTER the experience, that you evaluate, analyze, and judge. It is then you decide what to believe.

Carla Rueckert, who was the channeler for the project described her struggles learning to channel in the introduction in Book 1.

As we sat meditating, according to the instructions, everyone in the group except me began to make strange noises with their mouths. For my part, my main difficulty during those first six months was keeping a straight face and not laughing as the sessions gradually became a raucous symphony of guttural clicks, slurps, and tongue flops.

The nature of the experiment changed drastically when the group was visited by a contactee from Detroit. The contactee sat down with the group and almost immediately was contacted apparently by telepathic impression saying: “Why don’t you speak the thoughts that are on your minds? We are attempting to use you as instruments of communication, but you are all blocked through fear that you will not be speaking the proper words.” Through this instrument, Walter Rogers of Detroit, Michigan, the group was instructed to refrain from analysis, to speak the thoughts and to analyze the communication only after it had been completed.

In my other entry, How It Began – Pt 5 – ET’s and Spirituality under the subsection Reality Check I state,

“I often find that after I make that leap of faith, as I dive further into the rabbit hole, those leaps of faith become validated through the knowledge I acquired in going deeper. In essence, I don’t think I would have come to the profound understanding of the universe that I have gained without taking those leaps of faith. It was only then, that I was able to find the validations in those leaps of faith that had got me there to begin with.”

It was in this moment that I realized, that I was applying to individual instances, unconsciously, where I needed to maintain momentum in trying to evolve what I’ve come to know and believe. Only realizing after reflection (writing this blog) what it is I was actually doing.

Reserve Your Judgement

You always hear the terms, “reserve your judgement till the end”, or “approach it with an open mind”, but I never really thought about what that really entails. If I tell you to read the Law of One and “approach it with an open mind” and “reserve your judgement till the end”, it means that you have to approach it without any preconceived notion – like I don’t believe in channeling. This is a book of everything all at once. I describe in How It Began – Pt 5 – ET’s and Spirituality under Managing TMI (Too Much Information), about when we need to digest something incredible, we need to do it 10% at a time or we will never be able to believe it. It’s too much of a shock to our current beliefs, but in this case, there is just too much to be able to apply that approach. It means, that to truly digest what is being offered here, you can’t analyze and judge as you go, because if you do, you are then not properly allowing yourself to “reserve your judgement”.

In order to do that, you have to read it as if you believe every word. Then when you’ve finished, make your judgement in what it is you wish to believe. This is critical in approaching this material. You will find validations to this material come up unexpectedly all around in spiritual, metaphysical, and ET subject matter once you know the material. As I stated,

“I often find that after I make that leap of faith, as I dive further into the rabbit hole, those leaps of faith become validated through the knowledge I acquired in going deeper.”

Carla Rueckert also had this important message…

“This last point is an important one when talking about psychic research of any kind. Don has always said that one of my assets as a research associate is my great gullibility. Almost anyone can play a joke on me because I do not catch on quickly. I have a way of taking things as they come and accepting them at face value and only afterwards analyzing what has occurred. This gullibility is a vital factor in obtaining good results in paranormal research. A desire for proof will inevitably lead to null results and voided experiments. An open mind, one willing to be gullible, leads its possessor to a kind of subjective and personal certainty which does not equal proof as it cannot be systematically reproduced in others. However, this subjective knowing is a central part of the spiritual evolution to which Ra speaks so compellingly in this volume and which we have researched for many years now.”

It is certainly interesting that the concept of faith, believing, gullibility is in fact necessary in order to expand the mind to places its never gone before. Else judgement and analysis will cause you to retract from proceeding any further to where the answers may be found. Furthermore, in regards to the experiences, analysis during an experience will hinder the results of the experience thereby justifying the judgment.

Carla describes this in their research…

“Don states that telepathic experiments between himself and Uri Geller have been totally successful. However, since they were deliberately not performed under rigorous scientific control, they could not be included in any orthodox report. It is, in fact, our opinion that the rigorous controls have a dampening effect on the outcome of any experiment of this type.”


Ironically, in my journey, running from my family’s roots in religion for the reasons of the absurdity of faith, it is faith that I found to be the key to enlightenment. I’ve always run from that word because of its stigma with Christian religions. Its a word I feel uncomfortable with as a result. I still feel very strongly against religious institutes themselves but the parallels to the core teachings are unmistakable. Without faith in the approach to this material, and almost all of the other facets of this journey, I never would have evolved to who I’ve become today. Where with each step of faith justifies and validates the previous step. This is the only way to evolve past your current beliefs and understanding of all things in the universe.

What Is The Law Of One

I decided not go into details about the books. To do so, i think, would be to elicit a premature judgment to the reader. I will save specific details for later posts which I will issue ‘spoiler alerts’ for those who have not read it. haha.

I will say though, is the Law of One is not a religion. It is about the laws that govern the universe.  It does not condemn, discredit, or conflict with religion; although it identifies many distortions that have corrupted the intended messages. The material provides a cohesive bridge of understanding between religions as spiritual paths to the same truth. It provides the objective understanding of positive and negative polarities, and the evolution and the ascension of each. It is about the evolution of life itself. You will discover cosmic events that have shaped our universe, our world, and our species. It also discusses in beautiful detail, the essence, and meaning of life. After reading this material you will be inspired by life, provided conscious guidance on how you may wish to live, and it will dissolve your fear death. Now, if THAT does not peak your interest and beg, deep into your being, the need to investigate further, then you are not ready.

On a personal level, It has brought solidifying validation to so many of my previous beliefs, beliefs I felt even before this journey began. More-so,  it has provided me a guide to the universe and myself, from the past, present, and future self. It has given me an even more spectacular view of our journey and the universe that far exceeds what I had dreamed of. A universe so full of hope, diversity, complexity, and rich with detail in history and purpose.

Where To Begin

Begin by reading David Wilcock’s study guide for the Law of One. This should provide you with enough foundation for you to understand the books. After you have finished, then decide. For me… I choose to believe, and I am a better human being for it. I now see everything through the eyes of a child – with wonder, compassion, awe, curiosity, and adventure. What better way to live a life? In the end, whether you choose to believe or not to believe, one thing is for certain, you will be inspired. So either way, this tells me, I’m on the right path…

And so the journey continues …

How It Began – Pt 5 – ET’s and Spirituality

Something that I found that was really important for my spiritual development was in learning about, and accepting, the symbiotic relationships between us, the ET’s, and spirituality. Given how my journey began through the studies of the extra terrestrial work by Dr. Steven Greer, this was very beneficial for me. You might even say it was necessary for what I required in my journey, not only to begin, but to become open and accepting enough to grow with it as things became more strange.

There are living three dimensional beings, living as we do in this universe with these fantastic technologies which opened my mind creatively, to what else is possible in this life and universe that we are living. Knowing that there are advanced technological explanations (even if it is well passed our knowledge of understanding) it allowed me to accept what normally I would have not been able to accept. The study of extra terrestrials allowed me to accept their strange forms, psychic abilities, and technology. From the countless physical species (which is crazy enough), to biological robots, and conscious machines – yes conscious machines, invisibility through cloaking and dimensional shifts, or even drones in the form of glowing orbs of light. Strangeness.

Reality Check

I am not oblivious to what I feel to be true, may be false. I accept that; however, to what matters, these have been validated to me many times over, so for those I am convinced. What I believe is what I believe for a reason, but often it involves some leap of faith; however, most of the time, for me, it’s been a cautioned and informed leap of faith. I have to feel that other sources that I trust, acknowledge it and it is something that I feel really is true in my heart – never forced. I often find that after I make that leap of faith, as I dive further into the rabbit hole, those leaps of faith become validated through the knowledge I acquired in going deeper. In essence, I don’t think I would have come to the profound understanding of the universe that I have gained without taking those leaps of faith. It was only then, that I was able to find the validations in those leaps of faith that had got me there to begin with.  I am not asking anyone to believe what I believe, this is your own path to explore and your own decision to make, but for me, it all fits together, and it feels true.

DNA Results…

In the Documentary Sirius by Dr. Steven Greer, he investigated the remains of a 6 inch creature with an elongated head found in Chile. Said to have lived to the age of about 6 years old and having no signs of any deformity causing illnesses, they set out to discover the origins of the creature. The DNA research was conducted alongside Emery Smith (Emery is known for multiple alien autopsies conducted under the military). The DNA of the creature turned out to be human, but the scientist was cautioning that yes it is human, but there’s a lot of unexplained DNA in there. Hmm… ok, well that’s interesting. What else?

Since writing, this Emery Smith has come out to public becoming one of the most fantastic and credible insiders. The information he provides is spectacular with messages of hope, love, and compassion in our relationships with many ET races. I strongly suggest watching his various interviews describing his experiences.

Later, I had found an interview with Dan Burisch.

Mr. Burisch claims to be a biologist that took samples from a live ET Grey called J-Rod. His testimony regarding procedures, his surroundings,  and the bases he worked seemed to fit in line the the testimony of others under Dr. Greer’s Disclosure Project. From what I’ve come to understand through my research on the subject he comes across as quite believable. It is a very fascinating interview and I highly recommend watching it. Anyway, the piece of information that is of particular interest here, among many others, is that the DNA test results from the Grey came back – human. This was a very profound eye opening piece of information. Now it was only this Grey, so we don’t know about the other species, but there was also this Atacama creature – So what does this mean?

Psychic Reality

The reality of an alien life form being human, considering we are FAR less developed,  would then suggest that we come from them. I can’t imagine how religious people would react to this information. It pretty much throws out all of the Christian ideas on the creation of man – or at least how we currently view it.  Understanding and accepting this, which is quite a big pill to swallow, would open up yet another door into this labyrinth of a rabbit hole. For me, this would soon open up a whole new world of information that would not only validate this incredible revelation, but open the floodgates to an exciting reality of the universe. But first, we had to take the next step in my evolution.

There was another realization that was confirmed in my mind, what I had tried to believe with pure faith and had little validation of. Knowing that the ET Greys had human DNA and a very similar biology, this meant that all of the psychic and metaphysical powers that were available to them were also available to us, we just hadn’t developed it yet. This and the fact that other humans were capable of it,  had convinced me that these capabilities were possible for all of us to attain. Up till now I had believed on faith, in the things I had read, that this was possible. Eric Pepin had said everyone was capable of it… But honestly, it took this piece of information added to it, to validate it as a solid belief.

Having this belief solidified was actually very liberating because until then you are under an internal battle of justifying your belief. It was such a battle because although I believed it in my heart that it was true, I was not able to demonstrate any psychic abilities. I have always had a tendency towards being empathic, where I can put myself into a situation in my mind or in someone’s shoes and it seems I can feel the emotion of that person or the emotion of that moment as if it was really happening to me. I would dismiss it in that I have a vivid imagination, but I would always wonder. So this realization made me take a closer look at that and also what else might be possible out there.

Now looking back, I realized that I was always frustrated with the absence of any psychic abilities, because I was always looking for something that stood out. But what I realized is that more often than not, those instincts blend perfectly with your normal thoughts and emotions. This makes them easier to dismiss than to isolate them as something unusual or unique. The trick is in getting the rest of your mind, body, and emotions to shut up so you can then see these things for what they are.

Solara An Ra – Pleiadian Emissary to Gaia: A Journey Between Worlds

I was mysteriously drawn to this book, Pleiadian Emissary to Gaia: A Journey Between Worlds by Solara An Ra and bought it without hesitation, and without even knowing what it was about or knowing who the author was. I’ve been trying to figure out how I stumbled on Solara An Ra – I can’t recall and it’s especially frustrating  because this was such a leap of faith for me that was not cautioned OR informed.  All I knew is that she seemed to be some sort of an ambassador to an ET species called the Pleiadians. I didn’t know till I ordered the book and was waiting for it to arrive, when I read that she was channeling these beings. I was actually thinking, oh man, really?! I didn’t know it was like that, then felt a bit discouraged that I had bought the book. I watched a few minutes online of her channeling and watching other people channeling as well, it is just such an odd thing and some act pretty weird during the experience; however, based on what I had learned, this really doesn’t seem that far fetched. So although I was a little hesitant about the book, i was still very curious.

Having read the book, it is quite honestly one of the most amazing books I have ever read. The book came across as very personal, honest, and direct. It honestly felt like I was a reading a modern day adventure of a biblical nature. Curiosity into channeling led to contact with multiple alien species who would provide Solara with detailed instructions for missions that would heal or reboot some of the Earth’s energy centers. By doing this, it would open up the channels to the spiritual realm more easily for people, in an effort to ascend the human race into the next level of vibration. These various alien species are trying to assist us in our evolution of consciousness.

Side Note – Finding Others

As I’ve stated many times, a huge part of this process that is necessary to move forward and to grow, is validation. Also, this can all seem pretty lonely when you don’t have anyone to relate this all with. I started looking for other sources whom I could relate to in my beliefs – in this case, specific to ET and spirit guide contact through meditation or channeling… and I wanted to find people that did not seem crazy haha. A few that I found were, Gigi Young and Bridget Nielsen. Both claim to be starseeds – human-ET hybrids that channel and are intuitives (the new name for psychics). Yes, reading that may sound crazy, but as far as I’ve come, it really isn’t, and in fact, if you listen to them, they are very down to earth haha – yes, I see the irony there, but they don’t come across as crazy, unintelligent individuals. Yet as fantastic as their stories are, the information they provide is accurate, based on all that I have learned from all the different sources, even up till now, what they have to say is in line with those sources and what is possible.

Another resource is Kevin Moore, he provides some great interviews and information, including interviews with Solara, Gigi, and Bridget. I strongly recommend checking him out. I learned a lot through his channel.

My Mission Of Contact

As crazy as Solara’s story was, as well as Gigi Young and Bridget Nielsen, I believed her 100%, and still do. I see her as an unsung hero on this spiritual existence that we are only beginning to understand. I was inspired by who she had become on that journey and inspired by the universe in that it has so much depth, history, and meaning. It is truly exciting – and fun. After reading this book, I felt this mission to establish my own contact. The reason why I had felt this to be important is that I wanted to find my purpose in life and to learn what I needed for my own spirituality. What better place to gain that knowledge than through a higher being. I bought the book that had started Solara on her path to channeling, Opening to Channel by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer. This was a book written by the authors in commentary to the messages channeled from Orin and DaBen.

“… Orin, have lived one earth life very long ago in your years… I have long since evolved into pure light and spirit, having no physical body. DaBen is also a being of light and has not lived an earth life.”

They are working with us to assist in raising awareness because humanity is going through a major transition and awakening. Again, I know this sounds crazy, but shoots, I believe Solara, so if she believed – then – plug my nose and jump in.

Types Of Guides

Making the handshake across dimensions can result in many different types of guides. “… those who have been incarnated on the earth and lived at least one earth life; those who have not lived an earth life and are from dimensions outside the galaxy and stars… “, there are also ascended masters (Jesus, would be an ascended master), Angels, guardian angels, extra terrestrials, higher self, “… there are other guides that do not fit into these categories.”. It is also important to note that just because these may be higher beings, does not mean there are not dark or manipulative entities. The positive, as well as the negative may pass through. It is through intent and awareness that you decipher what may be allowed through. Also, I learned that often loved ones who have passed are not likely able to come through because they are not yet enlightened beings, they are lower vibration and not able to control their vibration very well.

Putting It into Practice

This was all pretty exciting to think of all that may be possible to connect to, but also the decision – who should I try to connect to? The advice given was when you are ready to connect to ask for the “Highest Guide” available. This is a way through intention to weed out the low vibration energies which you want to avoid. You can connect to your Higher Self for advice but that higher self will not be is high of a vibration as some of the other higher guides. These higher guides may also be extra terrestrial – how cool would that be? But here’s the caveat, to be able to connect you need to be able to somewhat match the vibration together. So a higher being will need to lower their vibration, and may also assist you in raising your vibration temporarily so that a connection can be made. Also, if a connection is made, especially since I’m a virgin here, the signals will be incredibly subtle so you have to scrutinize everything, no matter (or especially) how subtle or faint a message might be. I decided, in the beginning, to simply ask for any Higher Guide that wishes to support me and can match my vibration, attempt to make contact. Ultimately, however, I would like to connect to my Higher Self – it is me. I think it’s important to understand my Higher Self and try to find my/his intent before consulting outside to improve upon that.

So, the process is to ask them to assist in raising my vibration. Also, another thing to be aware of is allowing for any method as a medium for a message. Touch, sound, air pressure, movement, internal movement, emotion, a thought, an image, a color, even allow for involuntary or suggested movement. These methods for contact are not specifically channeling, but I’m not picky and will take what I can get. Channeling comes through verbally using your body as the communication device. You must also allow for verbal – just speaking (or writing) blankly from the mind. Ultimately, you must try to allow for as many methods as possible for them to attempt to communicate, because you never know what you might be able to resonate with more easily. It is also important to test them. It is expected and necessary to build a relationship. So I would make different attempts to establish some sort of communication, saying “On the count of three, show me the color yellow.” or “On the count of three, play a tone in my ear or ringing.”

My First Experience

I was looking for some guided meditations to help me achieve some sort of connection with a spirit guide.  I found Gigi Young. Yes, she is absolutely gorgeous, and when she talked I can’t help but to lock eyes hahaha. We pretty much align in our beliefs so I looked for and found a guided meditation from her for connecting to spirit guides. I modified it with what I need to establish a deeper meditation to achieve the highest vibration possible… Adding nature sounds, start with tones for focusing on root and solar chakras and a song to establish elevated emotions – then it begins the guided mediation. It took a few times but during this particular mediation, I was deep in the zone and the guided meditation ended, so I stopped the audio and continued to meditate. At one point I said “Tell me your name.” I allowed my mouth to be free to be manipulated and made a sound to allow the sound to also to be manipulated. Although nothing changed or wanted to change with the sound so I stopped making sound, but my mouth wanted to grow wider. My mouth continued to want to get wider almost to the point of it being uncomfortable. I continued to allow myself to give into it and ended up with my head tilted all the way back, my mouth wide open to the ceiling. It for sure looked ridiculous but it was oddly comfortable and it felt that this is what was intended for me to do. I got the distinct impression that this was necessary for a rise in my vibration, or something was coming down above and through my mouth and into my body. It was a little frightening in that it was so unusual, but I felt it was okay and in fact necessary. I ended the meditation noticing tears. This wasn’t uncommon in my meditations because of the elevated emotions portion; however, this was different in that it came from nowhere. This experience was somewhat cryptic, but a powerful experience.

I have noticed for quite a while, up to this point, of synchronicities that have been happening to me. I have made it a very conscious point not to worry about anything and if something has me stressed, then during my meditations I try to manifest, by visualizing and emoting, the result of acquiring or achieving the solution to that which is giving stressing me. That in turn, relieves the stress and soon, and rather discreetly, a synchronicity occurs to help remedy what it is that was causing me the stress before. Sometimes its so subtle or discreet that I don’t think of it until a bit later when I realize – damn that was pretty serendipitous. I also noticed that whenever I made that synchronous conscious connection or if I came across information that profoundly seemed to resonate with me as a sort of message, I get butterflies in my belly and I can feel almost as if tears would start to form.  When I began noticing this, I laughed and was thinking with intention towards my guides – “Is that you doing this?” And the feeling immediately occurred again. I started laughing thinking, you guys are gonna make me a freakin’ baby if every time I sense a blessing I get teary-eyed. This is the downside of an empath where emotions are where you resonate most.

I also began noticing that in a meditation when I would start to nod off, or lose focus, I would get a jerk on my arm or head. Now I would get this even way before and same with most people, if you start to fall asleep your body jerks, but when it happened this time, I had a firm thought in my head – “Focus!”. I sort of smirked knowing I had just been somewhat disciplined. What made the thought of “Focus!” unusual is that in my meditations, I let go. If you strain or attempt with vigilant focus, it does’t work, you have to let go, completely relax, soft gaze – lose focus and then gradually slide back into focus. So the fact that this was a stern order was not at my current conscious level. I think things like this are super easy to dismiss and impossible to ever prove to anyone – I only have my emotion and my own perspective of awareness to what is happening to decipher if it was something unusual. So now when it happens I apologize and think “ok ok!” hahaha.

Although I had these experiences, I was still not able to make any connections when making specific attempts to do so for several weeks. One night as I was doing a meditation laying down and trying again to appeal to my spirit guide, I felt a pressure in the pit of my belly. I had read that these feelings can be felt as an energy passes through your body. So I asked “On the count of 3, pass through my body”. At 3 I felt the feeling again… I tried 2 more times… I felt it. I then said, “On the count of 3, go into my body and stay there, then I will say now, and you will exit my body”. So I got the feeling on enter, but nothing when it left. I asked again – same thing. Then I felt something on the top of my head. It felt like something landed on top of my head. I restrained myself from reaching up to check. I was fairly certain it was just some feeling from the meditation. I then asked again “On the count of three pass through my body.” I felt the pressure in my belly AND on my head… I asked again, and it did it again. That was all I was able to do, but it was controlled and repeatable. This was pretty exciting. Very small achievements, but achievements none the less. I knew I still had a long way to go.

This Is Just The Beginning

As you read this journey, this has been my evolution in growth and understanding as I discover and experience this world of the metaphysical, ETs, and spirituality. It can be quite exciting to discover new information, that to your core, you believe to be real. Information that you feel not many people know about or can accept – or that it seems you are at the leading edge of new information. I would soon find out just how much I had missed that had been available for many years. I would realize just how much I really needed to learn. At the same time, it would intensify my journey toward the greatest enlightenment I could have never imagined. This was not only a spiritual but academic adventure, and this was just the beginning!

How It Began – Pt 4 – Dr. Joe Dispenza, the Scientific Connection

After my phase of studying and practicing under the teachings of Eric Pepin, I was feeling I was on the right path but I was having my doubts about some of Eric’s beliefs and the information he was putting forth. I discussed that in detail in Part 3. I was on the hunt for something else, I found a reference to a book from someone I follow on Instagram, showing glimpses from what looked like a very interesting book. I was deeply intrigued and bought it on the spot. Fewer books have made an impact on me like Becoming Supernatural by Dr. Joe Dispenza. It is a book that honestly evolved me as a person in mind, body, and spirit. This book complimented all of my previous studies, grounded my beliefs,  and refined my practices. This was exciting stuff.

Dr. Dispenza brought New Age concepts to more of the mainstream without the New Age grandeur, which is great for the movement. He not only spoke as a genuinely compassionate and intelligent individual, he brought to the table, science, with data and case studies.  This was the grounding validation that I had be looking for. It get’s hard to put your all into something on blind faith,  in my opinion, this had the data and the logic to back it up.

Becoming Supernatural is a book with a massive amount of information. I am actually a bit overwhelmed in trying to cover the book in this post because there is just so much here. I could go on and on about all the great information here but whatever I say could never give it proper justice. Please read this book. Especially if you are very skeptical to all this; although quite frankly, if you are here you can’t be all that skeptical because with all the crazy shit I get into I figured you’d have left a long time ago… hahaha. But this book helped to validate and ground many of my core beliefs. Because there is so much here, I will just go over some of the key concepts that resonated with me most.

The Mind and Body Connection

As I had mentioned in Part 3 about the imagination,  your imagination directly impacts your perspective of the world which in turn affects your reality. Dr. Dispenza took this a step further showing how it affects the physical body with case studies where for example you would have two groups. Over a period of time, one group did nothing, the others would sit in a meditative state and use their imagination alone to picture themselves working out their biceps. They were instructed to feel it and imagine in detail the muscles straining without actually flexing (purely the mind). At the end of the experiment the group that meditated the work out showed a 25% muscle gain in their biceps. This was demonstrated in other case studies as well. Case studies of healing major conditions using the mind were also discussed.

It is no mystery that the mind affects the body. If you are negative, angry, and or depressed; this puts stress on the body, creating an excess of negative chemicals to run through your system and over an extended period of time, will start to exhibit signs of sickness and disease. The opposite can be found, and has been openly acknowledged in medicine and science because it has to be accounted for in their experiments, is the the placebo effect. Positive thoughts and emotions producing healing chemicals and behaviors throughout the body. So if you train your mind to control your thoughts and to dwell on the life or person or the health that you want, this in turn conditions the body to that state.  Dr. Dispenza describes this,

” … thoughts cause biochemical reactions in your brain that release chemical signals, and those chemical signals make the body feel exactly the way you were just thinking. Those feelings then cause you to generate more thoughts that make you feel the same way you were just thinking. So your thoughts drive your feelings, and your feelings drive your thought… “

Now this can be a very powerful and positive thing, or it can be a very powerfully devastating thing. This is based on your consciousness. If you live your life unconsciously it means that you live a reactive life. Things happen to you that will then affect your thoughts which then affect your feelings which then affects your body and with law of attraction at play, you are then feeding that same energy back into the system causing it to repeat itself, this puts you in an endless loop.  This loop is an example of how we live in the past. As these events, thoughts and feelings get recorded to our memory and similar events occur or we are reminded consciously or unconsciously of those feelings, thoughts, or events, we repeat the cycle all over again.

So the goal here is to live consciously through intent and to reinforce the life that we want by putting our thoughts in positivity and imitating or becoming  the way we want to feel, which causes our body to live in this healthy environmental state that you’ve created for it mentally and emotionally. Doing this consistently causes the mind and body to reset – as in, this is the normal state, and it in fact, becomes easier to maintain because this is the norm. While doing this and feeding that energy into the law of attraction, we are then reinforcing that state of energy into the universe and creating a loop of positivity, because this is what we wish to be, we are  preparing our body for our future selves.

Organ and Cell Memory 

As I described in Part 3 in regards to red blood cells and white blood cells where the white blood cells are seemingly conscious and have memory – this is how they are able to attack diseases more efficiently the next time they are encountered. There also exists memory and energy in our organs. The most significant and measurable is in the heart. The heart’s electromagnetic field can actually be measured from several feet away and actually generates more electromagnetic energy than the brain. Dr. Dispenza describes a case of organ memory,

“The most dramatic story illustrating this involved an 8-year-old girl who after receiving a heart transplant from a 10-year-old girl, began having nightmares about being murdered. The donor had indeed been murdered, and the perpetrator had not been caught. The patient’s mother took her to a psychiatrist who was convinced that the girl was dreaming about events that had actually occurred. They contacted the police, who opened an investigation using the girl’s detailed account of the murder, including information on the time and place of the crime, the weapon, the physical characteristics of the criminal, and the clothing the murderer was wearing. The killer was identified, arrested, and convicted.”

If this sounds outrageous, there are plenty of stories out there describing similar events of transplanted organ patients adopting traits of their donors.

Chakras Explained

When I first got into meditation, chakras were always a hot topic, but I didn’t get it. I looked at that like other New Age foo foo as something made up to give definition and purpose in handling or balancing your energies, but is all just made up. Eric Pepin described it as electrical centers for the locations associated with them, and that simply acknowledging them by focusing on them activates that energy… okay, that makes a lot more sense.  Dr. Dispenza describes it in more biological terms, here is his description of the first, or root chakra,

“.. when your first center (the seat of your reproductive glands) is activated, with energy, its mind has a very specific agenda and intention. When you as a conscious being have  a thought or fantasy – that’s consciousness, by the way, acting on neurological tissue – the next thing you know, your body is physiologically changing and therefore so is your energy. Your body secretes chemicals and hormones from those corresponding glands to emotionally prepare you for intercourse. You have more energy in that center now, and it’s releasing its own specific frequency carrying an intentional message. “

This was made a lot of sense me. Describing that each chakra represents a system of the body with their own chemicals, intention,  and frequency. So meditating on those locations acknowledges those centers, supplying them with energy from this quantum field or ’empty space’. Feeding them feelings of love and appreciation, that attention activates them to function more cohesively with the rest of body, which inspires healing chemicals and behaviors from within that system. Brilliant, now I understand.

Elevated Emotions and Manifestation (Law of Attraction)

Eric Pepin also describes the importance of elevated emotions because it reinforces intention. Dr. Dispenza put an exclamation point on that which really drilled into me how important it really is. He states that manifestation is the process of broadcasting to the universe, along this universal consciousness wave, a unique frequency or electromagnetic signal of your intent, where complimenting signals would become attracted to and be pulled back to you in the form of opportunities and synchronicities .  Your intention from the mind provides the electrical charge. Your emotion creates a magnetic field, together, they form the electromagnetic field. You then compliment that with what I described in The Mind and Body Connection section, where you live, think, feel, and become in your thoughts, emotions and body that which you wish to manifest. I associate it with the concept of fake it till you make it. That is exactly what we are describing. If you do a manifestation meditation to broadcast that signal and in your daily life “fake it till you make it”, similar or complimenting frequencies or signals are going to be attracted to you. If you don’t believe this, think of what you and other people have attracted to your life. For a more contrast example – If you look like a criminal, act like a criminal, talk like a criminal – guess what kind of friends you are going to have? You attract what you put out.

Check out here how Dr. Dispenza describes intention and how it works.

So elevated emotion, I can’t emphasize enough about how important this is. In my development, surrendering to elevated emotion has had the greatest tangible impact. Eric Pepin discussed it so I put it into practice, but after reading Becoming Supernatural, he states it with passion about how necessary it is, so I took that to heart and stepped it up and the results were exponential.  As I’ve been developing I’ve been creating my own meditation audio to accompany it. I ended up combining my chakra meditations with manifestation meditations. Because from my practices in the teachings with Eric Pepin, he suggested when focusing on the heart chakra, to play some instrumental music that uplifts you with feeling emotions of gratitude. Dr. Dispenza spoke the same thing and also described it in doing manifestation meditations to evoke the feelings of already having been gifted or achieved that which you wish to manifest. He also stated that the emotion of gratitude is one that should always be evoked because gratitude already projects that the gift has already been received so it puts you in the proper mindset (see the video above). So I thought, well during the chakra meditation, when activating the heart chakra, since I’m already evoking this feeling of love and gratitude, then why not do the manifestation there as well. Kill two birds with one stone (sorry birds) haha. – no birds were harmed in the telling of the joke. ahem…

Anyway, the results were powerful. So much so, that I extended the meditation on the heart chakra for another song. The first song, I use to express my thanks for the blessings in my life. I picture all those close to me that have passed and I picture myself hugging and laughing with each of them. I think about hugging my daughter and just feeling as much love and gratitude as I can. I completely surrender into it. The next song I continue that emotion by picturing what I want to manifest. I picture my dream home in a beautiful jungle lagoon surrounded by green mountains. I picture myself walking out of my bungalow out onto the beach, sand between my toes, and paddle boarding through the lagoon, and as the music climaxes, I picture me and my daughter holding hands and flying over the lagoon just laughing and smiling. Every time, every single time I do the meditation I tear up with tears of joy and gratitude. Its such a powerful feeling… Then I continue to the third-eye and crown chakras. Any sadness, fear, negativity, or depression I had before the meditation is gone 100%, and that is no joke.

Meditation And The After Effects

How It Feels

Let me start by saying that during a meditation, my personal experience is this.. My body feels like a giant sandbag, sometimes it tingles and my body goes numb, but not in a lack of blood sort of way, that feels different, so there’s no danger there. In my belly, I can feel a very distinct welling of an emotion of some kind.  If I try to describe it, it’s like this euphoric ball that is growing in your belly and it seems to intensify or increase in size the deeper into the meditation I go. Before it would take a few minutes for the feeling to develop, now I can get it in about 3 seconds. It also sticks around afterward but I’ll get into that in a bit. My breathing goes super shallow, I actually sometimes seem to forget to breath, not in a scary way or anything you just inhale. I end up in a very deep trance, I feel as if it is the same thing as being in a self hypnosis. I actually don’t think there is a difference. My head feels like a balloon, light, airy and expanded.

Getting There

In meditations you can use your breath, mantras, tones or whatever to help you get into the state, I prefer tones. For me, following the breath in and out and focusing on it going down and up, is too much going on… for me the tone is singular and steady. I try to become the tone, like humming it in my head and becoming the vibration. I balance on it like on a balance beam. You lose focus and fall off, and I refocus and get back on.  But this is just me, do whatever works for you.

I’m In The Zone – Time To Play

Inside my airy and inflated head haha, when you are finally in the zone, this is when its play time. Any sort of psychic practice (healing, manifestation, remote viewing, astral traveling, spirit interaction, whatever) will pretty much be applicable here. Not that I’m good or competent at any of those, but you definitely get the feeling of – holy shit this feels freaking powerful, there’s gotta be something to this. This is a very real feeling so you can be skeptical about what all you might be able to do, but for sure you will feel that you should be able to do something pretty powerful in this state. Personally, I want to try it all because who knows what might stick or what I might have a knack for. It’s like getting a new sports car – you gotta try this puppy out and see what it can do! One of the many things I try to do is to expand my consciousness beyond the bounds of my head to make my awareness omnipresent. This is a prerequisite to remote viewing and astral traveling. I am still working on this. I can only get it for brief moments, but its amazing when you get it, because you feel endless. But its a work in progress.

Interaction In The Spirit Realm

I like how Eric Pepin describes in working with things like that. If you focus on it, it will disappear. So if something happens you can’t react or focus on it, you have to sort of soft gaze it with your peripherals and appreciate it but don’t focus on it or you will lose it. He is exactly right. This always happens to me whenever something cool happens then you suddenly focus on it cause its …well… cool… then it disappears and you have to start all over again. You have to train yourself not to react.


My meditations typically last from 40-60 mins. I like longer meditations because otherwise I feel rushed. I also typically resist spoken guided meditations – they are good to start with just to get the flow of a meditation. But what happens to me all the time is that I will be following a guided meditation and then you zone out for a second – then you snap back and you resume following the guided meditation but I lost my place. I was walking in a field now suddenly I’m in space, what did I miss?

Coming Out Of It

After I come out of it, in all honesty, I feel high on cannabis. My head is still floating, my body feels fluffy (not like fat or bloated) haha, sometimes I stumble a bit. The euphoric feeling in the belly is still there. I feel well rested, like I just woke up from a kick ass power nap. Now you can snap out of it and ground yourself by moving around, getting a snack or something. Dr. Dispenza recommends that you lay down for about 30-45 mins and let the healing power of the chakra meditation soak into your autonomic nervous system. I like to sit in a quite place or sit outside somewhere quiet and let it soak in, so I think that’s pretty much the same as what Dr. Dispenza suggests. I like to look around and try to see things in a more conscious way, maybe look for energy cues. Its very relaxing and peaceful, and most of all happy, contented, and blissful.

Lingering Effects

So depending on how deep your meditations are and how often you’ve been keeping up with your meditation practices, this will dictate how long the effects will last and how intensive it will feel. I’ve been meditating for about 1-2 hrs every 2-3 days for about 1 year now. I meditated the year before that quite a bit, but about 1 year now since I got into doing it very religiously (i hate – dislike that word). What you will notice is that because of the mediation practice of constantly letting go of thoughts and keeping your mind quite, your mind gets used to that and while you are awake, those nagging thoughts are further away and come less often, so you get a much clearer head. Then also, if you start to get negative feelings, sadness, fear, depression – then you treat it like you do when a thought intrudes your meditation, you let it pass. Of course there may be things you need to address and you address them… but you let the feeling pass away. If it is something significant like a death in the family, let those emotions play out first, just don’t dwell on those feelings for too long. What we are talking about is not suppression, it is letting go of things that don’t serve you. Pushing away the worries without addressing the problem is not the way. Push away the worry cause it does not serve you, but address the problem.

So because I do my meditations regularly, if I start to get those feelings creeping up on me more in frequency or I notice that they tend to linger, then I know I need to do another meditation to re-balance myself.  Also if I notice my mind is starting to get more distracted with thoughts, I know I need to meditate. If notice I start craving more distractions like games, movies, drinking or whatever, I know I need to meditate – it’s okay here and there but if you find yourself in more of a craving, then that is a sign you need to balance. Although I have had the opposite too, where focusing too much on spirituality, I feel like I need to do those grounding things like have some beer, go out, or whatever, but its not so much a craving of my mind to distract from my reality but rather my soul needs it. I think its my spirit’s way to tell me that I need a balance of all things, so indulge it! But through all that, after the meditation for even days after, I still feel that bliss, contentment and I can even still consciously feel that euphoric ball in my belly. If its a tumor you can be sure as shit I’m going to post a follow up post hahaha – I’m terrible.

My point is here that these are very real and tangible results. If you up keep that balance, you can keep away all those negative feelings and depression. I am currently going on 4 months into my divorce so it’s not like I am in a place where everything is all gravy in my life. I had attempted the divorce years ago before I had done meditation and it was very different.  I was losing it. I fell apart emotionally and had a hard time moving forward because I couldn’t think straight. This time it has been hard being away from my daughter – she and I are very close, but as a result of my meditation practice, I can say that I’m about as happy as I have ever been in my life, despite going through the hardest thing I have ever had to face in my life. So to me, that says something about the power of meditation. I’m happy because in my meditations when projecting the emotions of my future self – I am joyously grateful because my ex, my daughter, and I are all happy and are all better for it and that’s worth looking forward to.

My Chakra Meditation Practice

My latest for chakra meditation, manifestation and spirit guide connection can be found here…

Meditation for Chakra Balance, Spiritual Energy, Manifestation, and Spirit Guide Connection

I strongly recommend it. It may be for the more advanced that are familiar with and comfortable with maintaining long meditative states (1 hr) and it also incorporates multiple uses but beginners can take it slowly by using say about 15 minutes of it to practice getting into the state, then slowly work into doing the chakra meditations, then elevated emotions, manifestations, then finally incorporating spirit guide connection. Enjoy!

How It Began – Pt 3 – Eric Pepin, the Psychic and the Metaphysical Connection

After reading all I could about Dr. Steven Greer I began my search to find out what I could about God Consciousness. There were many other names for this state, the most common was universal consciousness. This in turn led me to Eric Pepin of the Higher Balance Institute.  Eric had been a psychic at a young age and came from a family of psychics. It wasn’t until later in life that he got into meditation and discovered the direct link between his psychic abilities and meditation. THIS is what I had been looking for. His approach resonated with me because he focused on the logic of what he was doing and why.

Note : In retrospect, some of my thoughts on him and his teachings have changed. I will get into that later in a retrospective post, but that evolution in my views does not change what I believed here so the information here is still very much valid.

When I first discovered Eric (which is the silliest name for guru haha), I checked out his podcast. His first one, Energy, Part 1: How to See Energy and Auras blew me away and I was immediately hooked.

It was explained in a way that I could truly relate to. I went out and bought all of his books and read them one after the other.

The reason I chose to believe him, is because I first got validation from reading about Dr. Greer and the connection between psychic abilities, universal conscious universe, and meditation. Because of my trust in Dr. Greer, I chose to believe these things were real, or at least there was something to it. Also, Dr. Greer’s books mainly focused on all things extra-terrestrial, which was absolutely and ironically invaluable in my spiritual journey. Eric’s teachings describe the same types of things both spiritually and in meditation but Eric’s primary focus was on meditation, spirituality, and the psychic connection so this was a natural evolution in my education. Because of this overlap I felt that Eric truly had something real to offer. What I also found intriguing is that his teachings were coming from a psychic, who I believed, would have a unique and possibly enlightened view of the spirit world and our connection to it. What made him such a great teacher for someone like me was the way he explained the concepts and how they were practical and useful in a language I could understand (plain english and not New Age mumbo-jumbo, “Harness your chi and merge your awareness with the light.”  haha.)


He explained that the quantum energy around us, connects all of us as a universal consciousness.  Not just here on Earth, but the universe and the spirit world. All things in the universe exist in their own vibration or frequency. You can interact or communicate with these things if you match your frequency or vibration with theirs. This is where meditation comes in. When you meditate you draw in, or attract, the energy, or prana as it’s called, from this quantum field around you. As you absorb this prana, it enables you to raise your vibration, mostly temporarily; however,  doing this regularly can cause a more permanent raise in your vibration, then when you meditate you are able to momentarily reach even higher vibrations. Doing this consistently and eventually opening up the doors to achieving more psychic abilities and enhancing any existing ones. Like any skill or muscle this requires a lot of practice, training, and maintenance. One new thing that was important to know here is that everyone is capable of all of psychic abilities, they can be developed; although of course, some are born naturally with stronger abilities than others, but anyone can develop them.

Energy Absorption

It’s important to understand the basics of energy. We see energy absorption all the time. When you set a rock out in the sun, the rock absorbs the heat. Bring the rock out of the sun and the rock retains the heat. The density or type of rock determines the amount of absorption and how long that energy is retained. Just like foam is used to absorb water and also sound. There also exists a life energy. We feel this all the time. You feel like someone is staring at you, you get a vibe when a certain person walks in the room. When there is tension “so thick you can cut it with a knife”.

If someone were to enter a room in a rage and take it out on a pillow, beating and screaming at the pillow, then leave the room. Someone else enters the room and picks up the pillow, that person is likely to feel uncomfortable and not know why. If you take some else’s shirt and put it on, do you feel, just for a second, like that person? At least, until your own energy gets absorbed into the shirt quickly replacing the old energy. Objects and people can absorb energy from whatever energy is around us. Some people give us energy others take from us. We use meditation to help balance that. So do crystals work? Yes, because they absorb energy. Some crystals absorb certain energies better. I was finally starting to understand.


In order to achieve anything in meditation, it begins with establishing extended periods of time in non-thought. Your body consists of millions of living organisms. Some are conscious some are not. Take for example your blood-cells. There are red blood cells and white blood cells. Red blood cells mindlessly follow their path carrying oxygen around the body. White blood cells can identify and attack an offending bacteria, communicate for the help of other white blood cells, and learn how to do it better the next time.

Given that the mind is merely a sense. It is just interpreting electrical responses to it. It is NOT who we are. The problem is with millions of organisms each with their own electrical signals flooding our brains along with these external energies we are not able to hear our true selves. Our true intuition. So we must learn to quiet the mind so that we can hear the subtle voice of our intuition. The universe does not speak in words. It speaks through images and emotion. This language is very subtle.

Non-thought is quieting the voices. Close your eyes focus on your breath, tone, mantra, whatever works, and stick to it until you forget that you are concentrating on your breath, tone and mantra. Loosen every muscle, slow your breathing (should happen naturally-at least for me). Thoughts will come and you will want to speak to them. Do not speak to them and let them pass. If you catch yourself speaking which includes “Hey, I’m doing it!” you need to stop and refocus. Sometimes you will be talking to and engage a thought for minutes at a time and not even realize it, once you do, don’t get frustrated, just let it go and refocus…. do this over and over again until for 3+ minutes you can go without engaging the thoughts in your head – then you can get mystical.  I personally prefer using tones… I try to become the tone and balance on that tone. It is very effective for me in achieving non-thought. Ultimately though, you want to be able to do it by focusing on the breath because that is always readily available to you. You don’t want to have to rely on anything external., BUT when learning, do what works for you and keeps you interested.

Lastly, don’t be afraid. You may achieve sensations and emotions that are intense that you have never felt before, surrender to it. Once you have achieved non-thought,  you are ready to take it to the next level.


Chakras, or power centers in the body, represent major electrical and chemical intersections of the body. Concentrating on filling these centers with energy, drawing energy from the quantum field or ’empty space’, results in balancing those centers. Balancing your chakras results in a balanced well-being of mind body and soul. This ABSOLUTELY works so no smoke up your butt there hahaha… This is often associated with yoga because adding yoga before or after a chakra meditation will go that much further in balancing the body and freeing up obstructions in the flow of energy. Chakra meditations are also required for more advanced meditation techniques and psychic activities because it charges you with energy. Later in part 4, I would learn much more about the chakras, their roles, and their importance, but at this time, this is what I knew of them.

Remote Viewing and Astral Traveling

This universal field is also what allows for remote viewing. Meditation allows your consciousness to vibrate and shift into other dimensions, from here you can achieve remote viewing and astral traveling as Dr. Greer had described.  Another reference for this is Paul H. Smith, PhD, who is a founder and past-president of the International Remote Viewing Association. A former Army intelligence officer, he served for seven years as part of the military’s top-secret remote viewing program. Here is a part one of a two part series where he describes how it works. Very interesting.

Connecting To The Spirit World

Because of the universal field, this enables a psychic to connect to someone or something in the spirit world. For example, when a psychic holds something precious from someone who has passed, the psychic will then try to tune into the vibration of that individual. They will try to tune into the energy that was absorbed into the object. They then try to match that vibration to connect with that individual that matches that energy. You then use your senses to try to interpret the messages.  The quality of the message depends on how well the psychic can connect with the entity as well as their ability to interpret what is being received. They are not given words to speak; although this can be done through a different medium called channeling, but that’s a whole different post.

What I found fascinating is that this process requires the psychic to have to have confidence in what they are receiving. For example if someone asked the psychic that they wish to connect with their grandmother who died in the holocaust and the psychic immediately sees in their mind an image of a unicorn with a clown on its back, you have to be confident that this is the message and interpret that. So especially, for many years, while you are developing, you could just be spitting nonsense and people would think you are crazy. Its such a hard thing to master and you only have your gut to validate it in that you know that it is not coming from you, but from somewhere else. So its hard to convince people.. hey, trust me, its a gut feeling. But that does not mean its not real.


This is a common theme in meditation and also what I have gathered from Dr. Greer, faith in what it is you are seeing or experiencing is important because otherwise you may dismiss something that was real. Remember the messages are subtle so they are easy to dismiss. The method is to never question or dismiss your experiences in meditation or psychic practice until after the practice is over and you can analyze it; however, in the moment you have to go with it and assume it is a meaningful piece of information or experience. This is sometimes a hard thing to swallow, but it does make sense.  Think of when anybody is trying to do something they don’t think they can do, like in sports for example. You always say, you have to believe in yourself, because if you don’t believe in yourself you won’t have the proper mindset and give it your all. It’s the same idea here, you have to believe in it and put your heart into it, or else, like in sports, you may get lucky and still achieve it, but chances are you are not. You have to stack all the cards in your favor. You have to believe and put in the work. It takes courage to believe, it’s an easy out to just disbelieve.  There is no risk there. At least give it a shot and put to the test so you can make your own informed decision.

It takes time for you to learn to identify and distinguish what is from your mind and what is from some other source. These are very subtle cues that you feel that you must learn to expose by quieting the mind and learning to identify them. It takes practice with a lot of trial and error, but it does develop.


One very important element in all of this is imagination. This is where the confusion comes in I think, that turns people away from all this (including myself before) because they don’t quite understand this, or don’t believe it. Imagination is what fuels our reality and allows us to expand our outer world as well as our inner world. Now I sound like one of those New Age mumbo-jumbos hahaha.

Here’s an example we see all the time, if you are sad and you dwell on that sadness, everything around you reminds you of how sad things are, from pictures you see, the music on the radio, people’s attitude, everything. It can even influence your health and make you sick. If you are happy and in love, the world is lovely, everything reflects this idea of love. So what’s the difference? The state of mind. Your perspective. Your perspective is influenced by your imagination whether grounded or ungrounded. If you are sad and pretend to be happy and believe you are happy… you will see that shift. Just like positive attitude is a healing placebo for health. The opposite can be said if you are happy in love then force yourself to be angry and hateful, things will deteriorate around you.

Your imagination even controls your memories. How many times have you remembered something different than what really happened? But what you THINK happened is what drives how you feel about that event, that event could effect the rest of you life if that had a strong impact on you. If you were not responsible for a car wreck, but you believed you were, think of the impact your imagination would have on you.

Imagination is used in meditation to bring life and context to something, it can also be a language specific to the individual. For example, if the thing you loved most was this world was a stuffed bear you’ve had since you were a baby and you wanted to express your love for someone who has passed you may imagine handing them that bear because to you, that bear means all the love in the world. That person would know what it meant because its not the bear that matters but the emotion that was behind it. Or the other way around. You fall asleep and imagine this person walking up to you, handing you this stuffed bear. Because this is how you see love, this is a language that is purely your own. This is how your imagination is used as a personal language.

There is an meditation exercise by Eric in cord-cutting where in the meditation you cut emotional ties. So you pretend there is a sword in your hand and you physically move it around your body imagining the cords breaking away and freeing you. You can do the cord-cutting any way you want. What’s important is the intention and the emotion behind it. The imagination just helps as like a shortcut for us to easily make that connection to the intention and emotion we trying to evoke.

If you wanted to throw a ball of energy you would imagine and physically mold this ball of light in your hands and cast it out like Airbender haha. It looks ridiculous, but you are tying intention and emotion together to achieve the result that you want.

Understanding this allowed me to let go of a lot of skepticism and open up to why things can get so weird. haha… For example if you miss your dead grandmother but you are scared to death to see her in a dream, she might choose to come to you as a bunny because it makes you more comfortable. Everyone’s experience in meditation and in spirituality is so varied and so different because all of our imaginations are different.  Understanding this also helped me make sense of all the guided meditations out there. I never understood why I have to imagine a field or whatever. There is a feeling and intention they are trying to evoke by having you imagine these things. Understanding this can also empower you to use your imagination more effectively… if you are told to imagine this but its more powerful for you to imagine that… then imagine that instead.

Things were starting to make sense… and oh, it gets way deeper.


Where We Disagree

I can’t thank Eric Pepin enough for the knowledge I gained from him through his podcasts and books. His teachings have helped me tremendously on my journey. That being said, I do have some criticism. I think it is important that you separate the man, from the teaching. You can learn a lot from their teaching and not agree with the man. He tends to play to the guru complex where he will state things that reduce or belittle his students (reader) by saying things to the effect, ‘I have to simplify my descriptions because you wouldn’t understand it at my level.’ or ‘you will understand when you’ve become enlightened like me.’ These are not direct quotes but rather the tone of similar expressions. He puts himself higher than others even though he repeatedly says he does not. It is arrogance. His books are transcripts and not written works, as a result, there is a lot of repeating the same concepts and often times it seems as though he is just making it up as he goes on a particular topic. I feel he needs to always know the answers and therefore always provides one instead of stating, I don’t know.

I came to see this more clearly as I evolved past my Eric Pepin stage to other teachers. I’ve seen a lot of overlap between his beliefs and others so I’m confident in his core teachings but I think when it comes to the details he makes it up. He has a lot of spiritual meditation exercises that I think are fantastic. These do work, which you can tell when you understand about working with elements in meditation like imagination, intent, motion, chakras, and energy. These are great for all sorts of spiritual uses from practicing non-thought, spiritual movement, cord-cutting, spiritual defense, chakra balancing, and more. He is also great on describing what you are looking for, how you know its working, what the purpose is, and how it works. These have all been the strengths that have worked for me and, in fact, shown results in my spiritual development. So just be aware of these things when following Mr. Pepin’s teachings. Take what works but be weary of his philosophies.

There is one belief presented by Mr. Pepin that I firmly disagree about. Mr Pepin states that there are no spirit guides, that they have better things to do than hang around us waiting for us to call. Later on in my development I’ve come to believe this to be absolutely false. This knowing also made me question Mr. Pepin’s connection to the spirit world because this seems to be something quite easily felt even early on in your spiritual development. He spoke of many other entities in the spirit realm but none to be mistaken for guides. This was disappointing but I still stand by what I learned from Mr. Pepin and would still recommend his work because it is great to get a broad overview and foundation for a lot of different topics as it relates to meditation, spirituality, the metaphysical, and psychic abilities but take it with caution. However, as I have expanded my knowledge on the subject I will look elsewhere to further my path.

How It Began – Pt 2 – Dr. Steven Greer, the Alien Connection

I was browsing the new releases at the bookstore when a book caught my eye, Undisclosed by Steven Alten. The book is a faction – a fictional story based around “facts”. The story is about the disclosure of the alien phenomena, getting out to the public, alien technologies that had been developed and kept secret by the government for decades. A few of these technologies included a zero-point energy device, which is a device that gathers near unlimited energy from the quantum energy field that surrounds us. The other was anti-gravity technology. The factual information presented here was based on Dr. Steven Greer’s book Unacknowledged
I had seen Dr. Greer before and found his work very interesting but I could not remember much of it. As I continued to read Undisclosed, and I got more into the book I was blown away by what I was reading,  thinking, no way is this part real… Then I would look it up and found through multiple sources of what seemed legitimate – Holy shit, could there be something to this? It came to where I could see how the book was written and could then determine what was made up for the story and what was gathered from the “facts” in Unacknowledged.

There was a documentary out based on the book Unacknowledged. I immediately pulled up the movie and watched it. I was glued from the first minute to the last. This was was incredible and possibly the most important documentary I had ever seen.  Why?

Compass For Truth

“In May 2001, Greer held a press conference at the National Press Club in Washington, D.C. that featured 20 retired Air Force, Federal Aviation Administration and intelligence officers. According to a 2002 report in the Oregon Daily Emerald, Greer has gathered 120 hours of testimony from civilians and various government and military officials, including astronaut Gordon Cooper and a brigadier general, on the topic of UFOs.” – from Wikipedia.

As of 2011, through the Disclosure Project he had personal testimony for over 400 people. These were not common everyday people but people of public office, in military services of all branches and ranks, government and civilian contractors. Think about that. These are people of a high reputation with a legacy to their name, coming out to the public would only bring ridicule, not only to them, but their families. Yet these distinguished men and women put their trust and, even at times, their safety, in the hands of Dr. Greer. I don’t think this is a decision that would have been made lightly for each individual. This awareness brought me to the conclusion that Dr. Greer was a man I could trust. If all these distinguished men and women could put their trust in this man, for something so damaging to them, their families, and their legacies, then this was a man I needed to listen to. This decision would change my life, that would begin unfolding one revelation after another.

All of a sudden this opened up the gates to be able to decipher what was real and what wasn’t in the world of extra terrestrials. For once there was a compass for truth in this sea of information filled with nonsense and disinformation.

It’s Starting To Get Weird

After finishing the book Undisclosed, just feeling blown away by the story and  the potential wealth of information that I was anxious to explore, I immediately purchased the book Unacknowledged. I had read that the ETs use telepathy for communication and even use it to control their ship. Not a projection of words but images and even bringing you into their thoughts. Dr. Greer discusses a protocol called CE-5 (close encounter of the 5th kind – human initiated contact). Using meditation as a key tool to initiate contact with ETs. Using remote viewing to vector your location, to allow you to see and even communicate. I was thinking… Wait, he’s talking about psychic abilities through meditation. I found this fascinating, I wanted to learn more about Dr. Greer and how he learned this, so I purchased his other books. The most intriguing being Hidden Truth: Forbidden Knowledge, a biography of Dr. Greer on how it all developed.  Ok… NOW we are getting into some crazy stuff.

He was talking about when he was younger getting into a meditative state called ‘God Consciousness’ and being able to communicate with ET’s.  It was a state he said he had felt in a near death experience. He even described this event of achieving God Consciousness on a mountain, interacting with ETs having been taken to their craft where he developed the CE-5 protocols with them. He stated,

“The experience of oneness with them had a key message: the conscious mind we are awake with at this moment is the same as that of the Divine Being, and of all beings.” Returning to consciousness he started heading back… “As I started down the mountain, I found that with each step, I was in a state of near weightlessness, as if walking on the moon! My steps were actually leaps of 20 to 30 feet at once! It was more like floating than walking. There was a strange, magnetic, anti-gravitational effect around me,  making me lighter It wasn’t a product of my imagination; my physical body was  light…. It was incredibly blissful. As I got  closer to town, the phenomenon faded, and my weight returned to normal.”

– What the F#$%?!

This was crazy. Why would anyone say that? Why would you put yourself through the torment of disclosing that, ESPECIALLY if it was made up? And if it is made up, why would you publish something so fantastic when trying to establish a platform of trust?  I was really beside myself taking this in. Not only this event, but many other events in his books. Another example, aside from the multiple assassination attempts on him and his team, there were agents using a remote device, to what Dr. Greer described as seemingly trying to rip his soul from his body. This is the stuff of science fiction, but I’m reading the biography of a man where military colonels put their trust into and put their legacies on the line for. I read testimonies from eye witnesses describing similar experiences as Dr. Greer of other instances of strangeness.

I had to ask myself, do I believe him? All I could think was… I know HE believes it so I don’t NOT believe him, but whatever this was, I believe something happened, there’s something to this. Like the story of my father, the stories he would tell me are crazy, but I know he believes he is telling the truth, and I believe him. This is exactly how I felt here. So after reading his books, I had to learn more about meditation, more specifically, this state called God Consciousness.

Coming To Terms With What You Believe

I wasn’t ignorant to the internet’s claims on Dr. Greer. Stating things such as a money hungry fraud, unable to produce, and fantastical claims. I just don’t share these perspectives. It takes money to make a living, pay people for the business, and money to do the work, that’s just life. Whenever someone gets paid for something then all of a sudden it is not genuine or lacks sincerity. Money is not a good argument. He is called a fraud cause he lacks results, well I think his efforts to assemble remarkably credible individuals under the common banner of disclosure and to establish peaceful relations is noble and remarkable. Despite whether those efforts have not broken through to change the government on the alien agenda, it is making a difference through public awareness and it is all for a very positive end. By calling Dr. Greer a fraud, by association, you indirectly affect the credibility of the 100s of people that provided their testimony through him. This does not support the cause, but rather sets it back. Lastly, some of his claims are fantastic, I can purely attest to that. Some are just outrageous. Could some of it be untrue? Not if it is what he honestly believes, and I believe he believes it. I think he is a rare breed that doesn’t care how he may be ridiculed, this is what he feels happened and so he stands by it. There was an example of how an image he had he claimed was an ET captured on film, when it got around the internet and had enhanced it, it was a common moth. I believe at the time he believed it was what he saw. I’m sure he is often wrong, like all of us are. But that does not change the fact that he seems to be on to something. In everything we do it will be a trial and error and a series of countless embarrassments to get to the truth but that’s what we have to do.

To Believe, Or Not To Believe

One thing I really had to think about, is if I chose not to believe something, what is the reason for why I am choosing not to believe? Is it because it’s just too fantastic? Because there is no foundation to that. It would simply mean that I lack the imagination or am limiting what’s possible in this universe by applying my own limited understanding of it. Have you not seen things in physics or in nature that have blown your mind that you would have never believed it was possible without having seen it with your own eyes?  Take some of our technologies back to early civilizations… our cell phones, VR, holograms, TV,  WiFi, and the internet.. . What might they think of these things? Magic? The power of God? Why? Because their brains can’t wrap around how this is possible given their current knowledge of the universe. Are we any different? A 1000 years is just a blink of an eye in the perspective of the universe that is, in the least, millions of years old. So in that regard, we are still in just the infant stages of our evolution. We are as naive as those of early civilizations, we’re just too arrogant to admit that cause we have technologies. Another problem is too much information too quickly. Dr. Greer describes that in his book that some information he has to keep back because it becomes too fantastic that you risk credibility. This statement was pretty shocking considering there is A LOT that Dr. Greer discloses that would and has damaged his credibility. But it’s a balancing act, you push the envelope, you will lose people, but at the same time expose how far the conspiracy goes. I equate this to going back to the middle ages with a truck load of our latest technologies and saying, “Here you go, these are real”… It’s a lot to take in. Unless we have the intelligence or the exposure to how they might be possible, it may come across as fantasy.

Of the entire light spectrum we see only a fraction of it, literally. This goes for sound as well. We went through 1000’s of years before discovering gamma rays in 1900. But they didn’t just appear. They were always here, we were just blind to them. We are limited to what our limited senses can sense and what our technology can detect. As our technology grows, we discover more. Discover, not invent, because they were always there. Around us are infinite waves of signals of information. Just think about WiFi alone. As we sit here we are surrounded by this signal but we can’t see it or interact with it without a computer and yet its all around us, vast amounts of near limitless access of information. Sounds, pictures, words all around us and yet with our all our senses we can’t even detect that it exists much less decode it. We can only access that because with a computer we can harness that frequency and decode it. Think hard about that because what else could there be in this ’empty’ space around us that we have not yet discovered. Exploring this concept would soon change my perspective of our universe forever.

Where We Disagree

I think it is important to detail disagreements in the learning process whether that be at the time of the learning or after, having evolved further and seeing things in hindsight. I preface this by stating I do not believe Dr. Greer is trying to deceive anyone in any way and that it is simply what he has learned and has come to believe as truth. Dr. Greer is a pioneer and a great man in my opinion and I firmly believe he is a genuinely good and honest person. If there is any known deception on his part it would be, as I see it, an overcompensation to correct our overwhelming global bias.

Dr. Greer states that he does not believe in the existence of negative ETs or any negative actions by ETs. Stating that to achieve their level of technology and consciousness that negativity could not exist else they would have long since destroyed themselves. Also, given their high technology, they could easily destroy or do what they want with us already.

Although this makes sense, this subject becomes more convoluted with the understanding that the MIC (Military Industrial Complex) replicates non-terrestrial technology and uses it in negative ways to further their own agenda while maintaining our fear of ET encounters. This includes perpetuating those fears with simulated abductions. This has been known, and admitted by insiders that this goes on quite frequently and quite maliciously. There is also great evidence in the the way of positivity from the ET’s in attempting to tame our thirst for nuclear weapons. Analogous to a child with a loaded weapon, they are trying to teach us how dangerous this is. The MIC through the history of media propaganda has reinforced the influence of fear into our collective psyche toward beings from ‘beyond’. As I stated, it would seem that Dr. Greer may be overcompensating for this overwhelmingly negative bias we have as a collective by portraying them as overly positive in hopes to reverse that bias toward a more loving and accepting people toward our cosmic neighbors.

Having heard this from Dr. Greer, I adopted this believe as well; however, I always thought that there must be some truth to some of the abductions – that these could not all be manufactured by man. Also stories of intense battles with ET’s that seem very legitimate. Here is one example, checkout this incredible account by Phil Schneider (this incident and the technologies described have been stated as accurate by various insiders) :

As I have evolved in my journey and have come to learn much much more on the subject, it is most certainly true that there are in fact negative ETs, from ancient times to present day. I do not wish to go any deeper into that here because this series, ‘How It Began’ is about the evolving journey and its too early in this journey to get into such details. What I will say though, is that just like life as we know it here on Earth, in life in the stars and even beyond to the density of light there are the struggles against the dark. – But what experience would there be in life if there was no struggle. It is not something be feared, but to be accepted in this experience of life.

Although to this point specifically, I disagree with Dr. Greer, I greatly respect him and stand by all that I have learned from him. I am a firm supporter of the work he continues to do and all he has done to move disclosure forward in an effort to bring the truth out to the public.

How It Began – Pt 1 – Before It Began

I think it’s important for any journey to know what you were like before the journey so you can better understand how the journey evolved as it did. Also let me issue a disclaimer here that these are my own views and opinions expressed here. Many may disagree, but this is my path and my path of understanding.


I grew up in Fairfield, Ohio in the United States. A typical suburbia town, I always found it very reminiscent to what you see on the TV show Glee (minus the singing). It’s the sort of town where many people will feel comfortable to stay there, after having grown up there. My father is a dedicated protestant Christian from the Church of Christ, but unlike many, he is very open and tolerant to all types of people. I was raised to follow the beliefs of the church and was brought to church, reluctantly, every Sunday. Religion never suited me. I was agnostic in my belief in God, and I never agreed with the beliefs and practices. I figured something was out there but this is all too complicated for my small mind to wrap around. I just knew that religion wasn’t it, it was too skewed with human agenda and self-interest, especially with the passage of time, only a hint of what I felt was real remained.


I never understood why religion and science were always at war with one another. If religion depicts what is reality, why would it not fit into the realm of science? I think in religion, people want to believe in magic and its important that science NOT explain it, like to explain it would make spiritually less fantastic. As a logical thinker, I think ALL things can be explained. Magic is just science that we don’t understand yet. To me God would be the ultimate scientist, he makes things happen through logical means, that we just don’t understand.

Why can’t Genesis be a children’s analogy for the beginning of the universe and still be explained by science? If Christians believe that if you don’t believe in Jesus you go to hell, does that mean that all Native Americans who lived on the other side of the Earth are going to hell because Jesus never vacationed to the US? Or the Zulu tribes because Jesus never went on safari? Tolerance comes with judgement. We are all made in the image of God but if that image does not look or act like us then you are going to hell or in the very least they are regarded as inferior. Don’t all religions basically teach of peace and love for all of mankind, “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you”, and yet we go at war with other countries and our neighbors in the name of God?

End of Rant.

I came to my own conclusion that back in the ‘old’ days in most major and lesser religions, that they all had something to offer at their core. They shared  common themes but with culturally appropriate analogies. The leaders and saints and visionaries, I viewed as legitimate to some extant and gifted or enlightened in some way; however their lives and saintly hood over-glorified. Some of whom would speak from a highly enlightened place, but as they are humans, their own bias and ego sometimes get in the way, then these become truths from the word of God. We all fall victim to this. As I would find in my journey, it is often important to separate the man from the teachings and be weary of those teachings that are not aligned with the enlightened message. One’s own prejudice and bias may skew the message. Because we are all human, it’s bound to happen from time time, but we can’t dismiss the whole message because of the corruption of a few.

I once had a minister whom I had grown up with in our church. He was a good man, a friend,  and someone I looked up to, despite the fact that I was not aligned with the church. For my marriage I was required to get a letter from my minister, so I appealed to him, which he agreed to help. In our discussion – I don’t know how it came up – he said to me that AIDS was sent here to this Earth by God for the purpose of getting rid of the gays. As a human being that considers us all equal,  I was appalled and dumbfounded. I immediately lost all respect for him, and for a church I already did not believe in, I felt even that much more removed from it. Looking back on it now, I am disappointed and hurt in the views of my former friend, but I should not dismiss all the good he has done in his life. We must disseminate what is enlightened, and what is the ego. I will stand by him and respect the good he has done, but I do not stand by the ego.

I also concluded that each of those “gifted” were sent to their respective cultures, to speak to that culture in ways that could be understood, to begin their spiritual awakening, or rather, in preparation for it. So in this way, all religions were legit in that regard. I came to this conclusion around 17 but I never found anything or organization that supported or taught this belief I had; although, many I talked to also felt this to be true.

In the birth of religion we did not have the scientific knowledge we have today so it had to be described in more generic ways of understanding. I felt that religion was good for ancient cultures to give the spiritual movement a quick head start, but as time passed and religions were manipulated for the State it had become corrupted. This is evident in the current biblical canon with the removal and exclusion of many books for the reasons that it did not coincide with the vision of the State; regardless of the fact that these books are still considered ‘inspired’ works.

As we have become more scientific, technological, and analytical, religion just doesn’t work in today’s intellectual culture.  In fact, it may be regressing the spirituality of the planet by causing people to remain stagnant and stubborn in old beliefs, because religion never evolves even as our understanding of the universe does.

Some would argue that religion is not meant to change, that the message of God doesn’t change. I would argue that our understanding of the universe does change, which further expands on our relationship to God which allows us to more accurately and efficiently facilitate that relationship and practice. Can you imagine if our concept of health and medicine did not evolve? Early concepts of health… the body heals itself. This has never changed, but as we learned about our world, we realized, there are certain plants that have medicinal properties that can help assist our bodies in healing. Religion is the same, but has not evolved past its original inception.

Quick Story On Being Conflicted

So my dad being very religious, he prays every night for about 1-2 hours. He had once hurt his back playing softball, when I was very young. He slid into a base doing something to his back. Doctors were not able to help. For many years after he wore a brace every day and he was no longer active except for the yard work and such, but no sports at all. Then one day he said during his prayer he prayed to heal his back in the name of Jesus Christ and suddenly it was healed until today, no longer ever having the need to use the brace.

My brother suffered from asthma growing up for years, went to one of those large group prayer missions and was healed, never to use his asthma spray again and was confirmed healed by the doctor.

I also had an uncle who told me of their house being possessed where the furniture lifted up and was moving around the house.

These are just a few quick stories to illustrate my point, there were actually many others. Now understand that these are all deeply Christian religious people, where (I know this isn’t the case for all Christians, but trust me when I say, it IS for these individuals) to tell a lie of any kind, even a white lie is a sin. Whatever they were telling me is the truth, or at least they believe it firmly to be the truth. So if this is true, but I don’t believe in religion, then what am I missing? I don’t think I am wrong in how I see religion, but how is this working? Why does prayer and praying to Jesus heal? Cause I do believe them. This was something I had sitting in the back of my mind for a very long time.

Rasta, Reggae, Hippies, The Metaphysical, Yogis, Ghosts, and Aliens

I always fancied myself as a sort of a beach bum, mountain man hippie, with a profound love for nature. Until maybe a few years ago I would consider myself a Rasta (by my own definition – haha). I’ve been deeply rooted into reggae music since I was 17 until now. It’s been more than – just music. Reggae music with its native sound, heart beat rhythms, religious chants echoing their deep love and respect for nature and their political rebellion against the oppression of all people was something I felt very deeply for. This was music for my soul, a vibration that matched my own and still does, just as much today. I aligned with no religion but with nature, to live naturally and with love, this was Rasta. To me Haile Selassie was another ‘gifted’ messenger among many others, not to be worshiped, but to be respected and honored.

As a hippie I felt an appreciation for all things hippy – yogis, the metaphysical including dream catchers, crystals, tarot, and psychics. These were clearly different types of hippies. For example yogis don’t necessarily agree with psychics and yogis believe in chakras and being vegetarian but psychics may not care hahaha. I appreciated them all and I was interested in them all but I never got too deeply into them because I could never find anything, I would feel, is reliable to justify or validate them. There’s a lot of information out there, but who and what to believe?

Here, smell this, it will open your third-eye? Seriously?! Listen to these tones for an out of body experience… Nope, didn’t work. I love crystals but didn’t believe there was anything to them. So it felt like they were just tricking themselves into believing a fascinating and mysteriously wonderful fantasy. I think there is something to the psychic but these are for the gifted and often in its exploitation, made into a joke.

I like the outlook of the yogi but sometimes it felt like a cult. Some seemed judgmental and had an air of smugness to them. Yogis also came across as too flowery (if that’s a word). For example, using a bunch of mystical pretty sounding peaceful words which is nice but there is nothing behind it… Like “Turn your heart to the light and feel the oneness of the universe”. What does that mean? It sounds nice but that’s all it is. It’s indulging in a fantasy, but it’s no different than anything we may use for escape.

I have also always believed in ghosts and aliens. I bet right now you are wondering how the hell does all of this fit together?… In due time… and that’s the “AHH HAA!” moment or series of moments, so bear with me. I had always loved learning about things that have to do with ETs and UFOs; however, like everything else I believed, I believed in it, but that was all, because I don’t believe anything that’s out there on it. Like religion, I believe in something but I don’t believe anything that’s out there because it’s all become deluded with nonsense and disinformation. I believe in psychics, but there’s so much crap out there that I can’t believe anything out there. So I believe in ETs, but I don’t believe anything out there…. But I’m fascinated with all of it.

To Conclude…

What I realized is that there is so much knowledge to be had in this world, but without knowing the source of truth – how can that knowledge be gained? Then it would happen… I would find that piece, of what I considered, to be truth. Once I pulled on that thread,  a whole sea of knowledge poured in and continues to flood and expand my mind. So began this wonderful journey…